Should’ve known this would happen.

So, if you’ve been following this blog the past few months (and if you have, wow, I’m kind of surprised, given how little I’ve done with it lately), you’ll know I’ve been having an existential crisis with regards to podcasting. See the most recent post for where I was at prior to writing this one.

So, anyway, after much consternation, I came to a decision; I have a fair amount going on right now but I figured that once this class my Mom has me taking (which I expect to do well at but still not get the certificate at the end because after 2 months I’ve only just now gotten my typing skills up into the average of 0 AWPM (after having been -8 AWPM for awhile)), I could start the process of bringing Gilmore Girls Re-watch and Singular Achievement Phenomenon back. And maybe, just maybe, even look into starting up The Casting Game again. There, after all, did seem to be SOME demand for it, and hey, I’m in good with a handful of D-list Internet celebrities (still higher ranking than I ever was), maybe I could parlay that into something to help boost the shows.

While this was going on, I was going through the process of renewing my food stamp benefits because, you know, I can’t really do a show if I can’t eat, and my family out here in Cali, not being vegan, can only share so much in a pinch. I filled out all the forms, did the phone interview, did the stuff on the website, and was told I could expect my deposits to continue. I think you can see where this is going.

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So yeah, the deposit due today? Didn’t come. So I called. And after being kept on hold for about an hour was told I never sent in the “Rights & Responsibilities form.” Just that one, out of ALL the others. That’s quite the feat given I sent them all IN THE SAME GODDAMN ENVELOPE AS THE FORMS THEY DID GET! Oh, and they claimed to have sent me a notice that my case was discontinued. I never got one. I went through all my mail going back to August (they claim to have sent it on September 26th, and I live down the fucking street from the county office). Never got it. Oh, the lady said she’d send an e-mail telling them to look for it again, but if they can’t find it I’ll have to refile, which is a process that could take up to another week at least, a week in which I have no fucking food (at least this happened in one of the months where I’d managed to not run out of food until the last day, unlike some other times where due to misjudgment I ran out a week before the next deposit, which is always embarrassing).

So yeah, I decide to at least try to get back into podcasting, BOOM. Less than 24 hours later, facing starvation since I can’t get a job (seriously, the only places I’ve even had a shot at lately would’ve required me to move, which I can’t afford, or were so far away even my Mom told me the transit time wasn’t worth it) and don’t know if this whole mess with San Bernadino SNAP benefits will be resolved. And with my relatives not being vegan that only makes this harder. Sure, they could offer me some leftover stuff of theirs, and I know they’d do so gladly because they love me, but what they would be offering 9 times out of 10 would have cheese in it.

Well, you know what universe, I can take the fucking hint. I am cancelling my return. And on top of that, even though I was already doing a bad job of it, I’m not going to bother fixing all the broken links to my old episodes either. Because what is the point? To the 20+ people who took part in the poll last month, I’m sorry I wasted your time. I know there are few things as horrible as false hope, even for something as cosmically insignificant as podcasting. Podcasts and podcasting is a thing that brought me joy for a good 7 years. I guess given all that’s happened, that was 1 year too many as far as the universe was concerned.

So in essence, even if this mistake (read: incompetence) on the part of the county gets fixed, expect this to be my last post on the page. One way or another, this is the end of Arkle Studios. Well, no, that’s the wrong way to put it. I ended Arkle Studios back in February. It’s been dead for months. Today I’m just finally getting around to burying the corpse. And if Arkle himself goes with it, at least I was able to stick to the vegan thing. One of the few things in my life I can honestly say I’m proud of.

So, about that poll…

See previous post for the full story, but basically, I didn’t get the 36 I was looking for. But, on the final day, I got a massive influx of votes. Went from a mere 7 (3 of which were mine when I made a goof with the code) to 28 in less than 24 hours.

This…

It leaves me with a lot to think about. While I think on that though, I really should back to work at some point on getting the rest of the old episode links fixed so people can listen to the whole backlog. Assuming they still want to that is…

How a throwaway comment could lead to me coming back

This is a long one folks, so settle in.

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So, I’ve been doing these for a little while

For the past month or so, as I look for any excuse that I can to ignore that I’ve now gone a full year without even an interview for a job, or even for volunteer work (unpaid; just to pad the resume), and that any time I get the idea of maybe trying to podcast again my grandmother’s computer starts acting funny as if to say “Don’t even try it buster,” I’ve been talking over movie on my Livestream site (http://livestream.com/arklestudios).

3 of the 4 I’ve done were successfully recorded, so you can watch them at the links below, and I always announce my next one on my Facebook page. I may be stopping these soon too as very few people have been showing up, but JIC any of my old podcast fans want to hear me talk over a movie…

Living Out Loud: http://www.livestream.com/arklestudios/video?clipId=pla_7dc7e043-3838-4633-a1fc-dc04fd024389
The Replacement Killer: http://www.livestream.com/arklestudios/video?clipId=pla_2c2beaf5-1718-4962-81cb-59ff23b803c9
Southland Tales: http://www.livestream.com/arklestudios/video?clipId=pla_cf2fdb6e-6558-4d69-92b8-32f0f6f8b89b

Fear

http://thehumanarkle.tumblr.com/post/48474890313/so-this-song-is-called-fear-why-well-i-admit

Gilmore Girls Re-watch Podcast #102: But Not As Cute As Pushkin

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Contact Us:
Voicemail Line: 336.42.ARKLE
E-Mail: arklestudios@gmail.com

Special Thanks To:
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The Gilmore Girls Wiki

Plot Summary: Rory is asked to host a Chilton student for a few days at Yale, but the student is more interested in her freedoms than the responsibilities that go with them. Lorelai learns about Luke’s dark day, which happens to fall on the same day as Miss Patty’s 40th anniversary party. Logan works his way into Rory’s life, prompting her and Richard to pull a little prank of their own.

Note: Yes, this is the final episode of the podcast. I explain why in the previous entry on this site, just below this one. Thanks to all the listeners who stuck it out this far, and I’m sorry we won’t get to finish this. 🙁 Goodbye.

At a certain point, one needs to accept reality.

Years ago when I was doing The Casting Game, once the gaps between episodes was getting longer and longer, and the votes on the polls fewer and fewer, and the effort to get panelists harder and harder, I realized that it was just time to let it go.

Today, I’ve come to realize that there is something else I need to let go of. Over the past year, disasters have been piling on and on, both financial and technological, and the past three months in particular have been sending me a pretty clear signal.

I just can’t podcast anymore.

Today, I was informed that it’s very likely that as a result of the newest Windows update, my hard drive is dead. And since the disc drives in that rig were already not working, fixing it is going to be impossible. Heck the rig itself was a hand me down after the last computer I’d paid for died unceremoniously last December. My current financial status shows zero sign of improvement, as I can’t even get volunteer work to fill the gap on my resume. Yes, despite everything I am somehow unqualified to read Goodnight Moon to kindergärtners at the Library. if that isn’t a “fuck you” from reality I don’t know what is. Based on that, I can look forward to buying a new computer never.

My family here in California has been too kind to me, so I could continue recording Singular Achievement over here once and Gilmore Girls Re-watch bi-weekly as I’ve been doing the past month, but I just can’t do that in good conscience, regardless of what they say. I’ve taken enough advantage of their goodwill as is.

So, after recording the next episode of GGR tonight, and after it goes out on Tuesday, that will be the end of Arkle Studios. I am retiring from podcasting. The universe, through job loss, three computer deaths in the space of 13 months, sound card problems, illnesses, loss of unemployment benefits, and loss of home has sent me a clear message. It doesn’t want me to do this anymore.

This is not a pity fishing expedition. I do not want any donations made to the tip jar, as even if every listener I had gave something it would not be enough to buy a new rig, seeing as I lost most of my listeners thanks to the Mevio debacle where they shut me down, then lied to me about letting post an episode letting people know we’d be moving. That there was probably another sign that I should’ve quit.

I will still listen to podcasts, and still call in to the ones that have voicemail lines from time to time. That is, until I lose my phone in April, because I know I won’t have a job by then; I haven’t even had an interview since late May, not even for (as I said above) volunteer work which wouldn’t even pay me anything, just give me some extra experience and something to pad the resume with. And I’m sure as hell not going to ask Mom to buy another phone card for me, she’s spent more than $50 keeping this thing that only ever gets calls from mean spirited condescending dishonest debt collectors turned on as is.

Oh, and I’d better let Summer Brooks know I’ll have to back out of the planned re-launch of Kick Ass Mystic Ninjas.

So, yeah. It’s been a good run. I’ve come a long way from my first ever podcast, where I didn’t have a proper pop filter and spent a chunk of it telling the then-kitten Keepsie to stop clawing me. And all things being equal I’d love to not only keep doing SAP, and finish GGR, but I’d have loved to start a Fringe Re-watch podcast with Tara from What The Fuck Is Wrong With You, and I even had an idea for a show about AFI’s Top 50 Movie Villains list.

But the writing’s on the wall. These last several problems have all occurred right at the height of my excitement of getting back into doing a weekly show. Every hard drive death, every job termination, every vicious cold or flu, every website going tits up.

At a certain point, one needs to accept reality.

The website is going to stay up, and I will at some point get back to fixing all the links so that all the available Arkle Studios podcasts episodes can be listened to, but again, starting Tuesday, there will be no more new content barring an absolute miracle. I can’t even say barring a Lotto win as you can’t purchase those with food stamps, which is all I have; I’ve not had hard currency since my Dad sent me some cash for Christmas. And as an Atheist and a Skeptic, I don’t believe in miracles. I don’t even really believe in ‘signs’ per se, there is no malevolent supernatural force out there that is seeking to ruin my podcasting career. It’s just how things happened. I can’t really blame anyone, not entirely (though I still hold some bitterness towards both Mevio and Taco Bell for contributing to the situation).

I’ll still be on-line too, though a bit less frequently. You can still find me on Tumblr, and Facebook, and Twitter, and the TGWTG forums, and in RDA on Monday nights and JesuOtaku’s stream on most Saturday nights except for RPG night with the family. So do keep in touch if you can. And if you are upset at this news I’m sorry, but I’ve been around podcasting long enough to know that most people who face issues like mine give up on it much sooner than I have. For what little consolation that is.

Gilmore Girls Re-watch Podcast #101: Emily Says Hello

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Contact Us:
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Special Thanks To:
IMDB
The Gilmore Girls Wiki

Promo:
The Funny Music Project

Plot Summary: Jackson has his hands full between Sookie’s food cravings and his town selectman duties. Lorelai invites Christopher to lunch, but Rory tells him off and asks Lorelai what Luke thinks of her and Christopher having lunch. Emily decides she’s still a viable commodity and asks Lorelai to help her start dating

Singular Achievement Phenomenon #16: F**k It (I Don’t Want You Back), Lost Without U, God Bless The USA, Mentirosa

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Contact the Show:
Arkle: arkle@comcast.net
T.M.: tmc@tmcamp.com
Voicemail Line: 336-42-ARKLE

Songs Discussed:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fuck_It_(I_Don’t_Want_You_Back)
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lost_Without_U
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/God_Bless_the_USA
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mentirosa_(Mellow_Man_Ace_song)

Videos:



Gilmore Girls Re-watch #100: The Party’s Over

Note: That’s the title of the episode we reviewed, don’t read too much into that. *wink*

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Contact Us:
Voicemail Line: 336.42.ARKLE
E-Mail: arklestudios@gmail.com

Special Thanks To:
IMDB
The Gilmore Girls Wiki

Promo:
No promos this week either because of the audio submissions from our wonderful fans.

Plot Summary: Luke tries to smooth things over with Liz and TJ when they stress out about buying a house in Stars Hollow. When Emily learns Rory and Dean are dating again, she calls a temporary truce with Richard to throw a party to introduce Rory to more suitable men. Dean realizes he isn’t one of them, and Logan realizes he is.

Note: A shout-out I forgot to give in the show was to Anime reviewer Hope Chapman, a.k.a. JesuOtaku. When I was putting out calls for comedy bits to add to the 100th episode, she was the only one to say yes. Unfortunately, I was never able to write a script for her part that I was satisfied with, but regardless, big ups to her for responding (one of the few who did), so by all means, check out her stuff at jesuotaku.com.